5. Raindrops

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Crisis and opportunity come hand in hand. Viviana's grief and depression might be a possibility for her Shadow/Alter ego to make herself more visible. Our Shadow carries everything that wasn't acceptable in childhood; the good qualities as well as the bad. And it is always pushing to be more integrated. Will Viviana recognise this though, or will she only see the bad?

6. Come take my hand

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Fate calls Viviana again, this time with a little more compassion and love. She offers Viviana the chance to enter a world of self exploration, a world where there are answers, as well as more questions.

7. Think of a Way

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Viviana heeds the call of fate. She also hears her husband singing of the love he feels for her, but for now she must go her own way and explore what this crisis might teach her. She hopes he will be there for her when she 'returns'.

8. Welcome to your Kingdom

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Viviana takes the plunge, and because she has many questions about the role of fate, and/or God in her misfortune, the first aspect of her self that she meets is her inner Spirit. He rocks her to her foundations.

9. Why me?

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At first Viviana is bowled over by her inner Spirit. But then her questions arise. WHY ME? Viviana believes that if you try and be a good person you can avoid bad things happening to you. Her naivety is countered by Fate who tries to help her see that adversity is part of life, for everyone.

10. High up and Mighty

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Fate continues to challenge Viviana's naive assumption that the Divine has a hand in every event that befalls human beings. It is a dilemma that religions through the ages have struggled with; is it His Will, is it Karma, or does shit just happen? Fate suggests that whatever the answer, Viviana has personal will in choosing her attitude to what has happened to her.

11. Oldest Question

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Viviana's inner Spirit tackles her question is a slightly more gentle fashion. Telling her that in the end, the answer to the question why me, is why not?

12. Hogwash and gibberish

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That answer may have pleased Viviana, but now her Shadow part breaks into the open, enraged at the facile new agey answers that the Spirit gives. Viviana is now fully confronted with an aspect of herself that she has denied. Viviana, the 'good girl', though more than a little whiney, meets Shadow, 'pure unadulterated rage', and then... Shadow's grief of being abandoned.

13. Is it my fault?

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After the full frontal attack from Viviana's Shadow there is a moment of reflection and sadness for the Spirit. Can God, can our parents, our guardian angels or even our souls stop bad things from happening. Stop us from hurting ourselves, hurting other parts of ourselves? If the could, should they even try? Or is it enough that they give us comfort when we fall?